Honesty
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Friday, February 17, 2006
11:34
Okay people I've decided to be truthful.
The time when I was missing-in-action, I was actually trying to separate myself from the outside world. Yups. Meaning from last Saturday onwards, only my family members had contact with me. No one else.
It was only till yesterday night I started talking to people. The times when I'm online, I never once sign in to MSN. I didnt touch my phone unless I had something to ask. Something rather important.
You guys might ask why? What happened to me?
Well... it had happened before. From time to time, I would disconnect myself from the outside world. It's nothing serious. Yups. How do I put this?
Okay. You see there're bound to be some phases in your life when you get disgusted by human behaviour. I was grossed out by what happened some time back. During that time, I didnt have the time to sit down and study my feelings. Now that I have the time, the one week study break, I made up my mind to make full use of it. From last Saturday, I've been digging out all my emotions and the corresponding thoughts and then try to understand and analyse them. Finally, I came to a conclusion last evening.
No worries poeple, I'm perfectly fine now. :) I'm sure you guys have felt the same way as I did before. If you havent then, I guess it's okay. This doesnt apply to every one.
The time I was "away" from the world, I realised how many mistakes and wrong decisions I've made. At the same time I also managed to see myself as a different person. You can call that understanding myself better, but i wont.
Enough said. Such a long entry. You guys are probably bored by now.
To sum things up, I guess I was just feeling a little jaded.
