Miai and XHH
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Saturday, April 07, 2007
23:12
Hello.
Many times we questioned ourselves about the things we do and the emotions we feel.
Nothing seems to make sense.
We might be having fun at one moment, but the next moment is full of regrets.
Random ups and downs cost us to sink to bottom low.
The truth has been revealed long ago.
We just simply refused to acknowledge or believe it.
No one, no one in this entire world has the ability to understand his or her every action, feeling, thought etc.
We all live for the moments.
Those moment which will have an eternity impact on our lives.
It has to be one of the most personal entries ever but I feel that the time has come for me to speak my mind on certain issues.
When there are uncertainties in your feelings towards someone, there is no next step.
As mentioned previously, live for the moment.
If one morning, you wake up with the courage to embrace that someone then go all out for it.
Should that morning never come, you know very well the rationale behind it.
Don't give up something you wanted so badly because of XYZ's presence or interference with the current situation.
This is especially since no one has given up hope in your dream.
Times when you're caught intween, feeling helpless and emotional, turn to the first person which crossed your mind.
Never mind you're not prepared to talk.
I reckon the company of that person will calm you down and make you feel at ease.
Silence may just be the best method for your quest to find the least painful and most peaceful solution.
Allow yourself to still feel good about your status in this situation, considering how hard you've been working to make yourself feel comfortable in your own skin.
The fact is that you did nothing wrong, you're just living for that moment.
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*edited to make this entry lighter. my blog entries are meant to be bimbiotic. what the hell.
M.G.: Hello, welcome to McDonald's, how can I help?
ME: Yeah, one orea McFlurry please.
M.G.: Why buy one only? Buy two la.
ME: Erm.... there's only one ME who wants ice cream, so one will do. Thanks.
M.G. uttered something in malay to colleague with his back facing me.
M.G.:$2 please.
ME hands him the money.
M.G. took my 10 dollars and stared at me.
ME: Okay, thank you. (initiating to him to hand over my change.)
M.G.: Orh, I thougth you said keep the change. HAHAHA.
ME laughs dryly.
M.G. withdrew one $5, one $2 and one $1 coin from the cash register and was playing with the money for 5 seconds. After the long 5 seconds, he tried to insert that $1 coin into the donation box. While he was doing it, he was observing my reaction.
ME: okay, seriously thank you. (Nope, I was annoyed cause I was even more annoyed with some idiot.)
M.G. smiled widely and FINALLY returned me change.
Shit like this happens to me pretty often and I wonder why.
Do I look dumb or something?
I hate ordering food.
Do I speak weirdly or something?
